Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Zoloft and Prozac

It has been a long time hasn't it. I didn't write because I felt like I'd be sounding like too much of a broken record.

Depression reared it's ugly head and I have stories to tell.

But for this post let me talk about Zoloft and Prozac.

They don't work. At least not for me. They work fine for the side effects. Nervousness, apprehension, dizziness, jitters, lack of sex drive, slight nausea. I hear over and over again how treatable depression is. I find that hard to believe. I resisted taking medication because I didn't like the idea of having my happiness dependant upon a pill. Then one day my sadness took a turn for the worse. I started writing my suicide letter. Instead of finishing it I broke down and asked my counselor for drugs. I'm not sure if I made the right decision.

I'm willing to give drugs a fair shot. Lets see what other anti-depressant cocktail they might come up with. Cursed hope keeps me going.

Now maybe Zoloft or Prozac will work for others, I encourage people to get whatever treatment they need. Be aware that like me, your path to hopeful recovery may not be a short one.


Katie said...

How long have you been on medication for before? I'm sure people have said this to you before but it can take a while to work. When I first started taking citalopram it made me worse if anything! But anyway, I wish you well and I really hope it works for you this time.

something more than ordinary said...

I stayed on the zoloft for eight weeks. Even longer than the Doc thought was necessary just to make sure. He said if they didn't start working by then they wouldn't ever. The prozac didn't last as long. I couldn't take the side effects. The Doc said I could stop if that happened. I'm going to see him today to see what the next step is. I'm gonna try and stick with the medication roulette. I just hope it pays off. Thanks so much for the concern and the well wishes. I hope it works too.